Wednesday, April 21, 2010
I have no idea what's going on, but tonight I just couldn't seem to bring myself to do my Methotrexate injection at first.
I'd had trouble loading the syringe – this is the second time a syringe has leaked on me.
The first time, I started off thinking I was being clever: I'd noticed that I'd often get a big bubble in the syringe, so I decided to do things differently. I'd just been sticking the syringe in the vial, then inverting it and drawing the medication, which is what my rheumatologist had shown me to do. But she'd also given me some written instructions, and on those it said to draw half a dose of air into the syringe first, inject that into the vial, then draw the medication into the syringe. So that's what I did.
Methotrexate everywhere! It all started dribbling down the syringe onto my hands and then the floor.
OK, not a good idea. Why it didn't work, I have no idea. So I've never done it that way again.
Tonight, I just had a big air bubble I was trying to get rid of. I know the instructions say bubbles really aren't that big a problem, but I still wanted to get rid of it, so I flicked the syringe and injected the Methotrexate back into the vial a couple of times, then drew it back out, when, tada!!, leaking again!!!!
Then the difficulty with the Methotrexate dart (hence the post title). Lately, I've been hesitating when I've gone to dart the syringe into my stomach. Not by much, but still.
Tonight, my brain froze and so did my hand. Stomach was all pinched and ready to go, brain and hand did not want to cooperate.
I seriously counted to 10 about 5 times, each time saying, OK on 10 I'm going to do it!!
Finally, I did do it (because, really, the alternative is what? pain? stiffness? not moving at all?). But I did it slowly, and I had to puncture the skin consciously – which I'm sure you'll all agree is not the preferred mode of injection – but I did it.
What is up with that?????????????????????????????????????